Avoiding a Season of Expectations
Updated: Apr 25, 2019
Many Christmases ago, I remember wishing for a jewellery set - it came with matching necklaces and bracelets made of shiny plastic. I have no idea why I wanted it so much but I remember praying hard for my parents to give it to me. That Christmas, I was a happy kid indeed.
I no longer have that jewellery set today. The memories of playing with it have also faded away. I still enjoy receiving presents but my focus is no longer on the gift but the giver, and I count my Christmases by the presence/absence of those I love. One year saw an empty seat at the dinner table when my brother was away on holiday; another, was marked by a renewed sense of hope when I saw my family coming together after a trial. One year was filled with the joy of young love; another, the pain that came from break-up and broken friendships. Looking back, these Christmas experiences remind me to value relationships instead of physical things.
So as the malls get decked with decorations and discounts, I have to make a conscious effort to focus on what's most important in my life because the season of giving can so easily become a season of expectations. To put things into context, this will be the first Christmas with my boyfriend and his loved ones. With it comes the possibility of getting entangled in a web of social norms and pressures: what should I be giving? what should I be receiving? For a while, I felt pressured to give something elaborate and expensive until I realised that the people I love didn’t expect this of me.
This year, I’m remembering that it’s not what I give but who I want to give to. And when I receive, I know someone values their relationship with me.
Who do you want to be present with this Christmas?
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